Oy oy oy oy. So many good things happened to me ever since my last blog, but since I'm going to be home all day tommorow, I'll just blog it all then. I am SOOOOOO lazy right now. Not to mention, hellofamotherfucking tired from work and... *COUGH* DDR.

Tommorow is the school's "oh so very cool" rally. It's fucking manditory, how lame is that. Egh... I guess I'll wear my basketball sweatshirt tommorow, since it's green and I could fit in like everyone else AND BE A MOTHER FUCKING SHEEP. Hahahahahahaha.

Sheep suck. Goats rule!

I guess psychos run in the family.

Here's my new banner for message boards and stuff.

Wow, my mom is a psycho. She's all freaking out about this war thing, and when she got home, she bought bags and BAGS of grocery so that we would be all stocked up and shit. She bought like, FIFTY cans of freaking tomato sauce. She also bought boxes and BOXES of Capri Sun, bottled water and Tang. She bought a lot of packaged food.. aka "junk food", hella of a lot of Macoroni and Cheese, and a lot of other stuff. It took me 9873249873453 hours just putting the grocery away in the correct places for crying out loud.

In the other hand, people are really pissing me off. Every single annoying thing that someone does gets magnified in my head for about 10 times and UGH. That's why I have my away message on for long periods of time. Fucking shit, I just wish I were invisible sometimes.

I'm going to my Photoshop for some relief.

I need a new digital camera. This picture was taken a few days before I accidentally dropped it and it broke. Cry, that was my first digital camera and I've had it for like, 4 years... ;_;

"The gang" and I are planning on renting Ringu tommorow, where we would watch it at Lorraine's house. Oh, and Jack might come! Woooh, Jack is the most kick-ass gay person [no pun intended, he really is gay ^^;;;] that I have ever met. He's so cute! I also kind of umm.. want to ask if Andrew would want to watch the movie too, if it was okay with Lorra. I would probably ask Sergio first and try not to make is all obvious... even though Andrew already knows that I like him but uhhh yeah I'm an idiot.

Oh, god. I was even more of an idiot in Art today. I didn't make eye contact with him whatsoever, and I semi-seemed like I was trying to avoid him. Bahhhh. Ashley told me that while our entire class was waiting by the door for the bell to ring, she saw him scootch forward--closer to me--since I was an idiot and I stood in front of him, instead of AT LEAST smiling and saying hi to him. Blehhhh I need to get over my first stage of shyness. =\

It's wierd, though. I can totally talk with Sergio probably about anything, yet I still have trouble greeting Andrew. >.<

Guys guys guys. I can still remember Eric... oh, God, Eric. Damn. I won't bother explaining right now, but ugh!!! ERIC! I loved that guy. [Not the one in Santa Cruz... that Eric is an ass.]

War war war war.

BOMBS AWAY!

Tune of "It's Raining Men"

Humidity's rising
Sadam's patience's getting low
According to my sources
Away from Baghdad's the place to go

'Cos tonight war is on height
At just about half past eight
For the billionth time in history
It's gonna start RAINING BOMBS!

It's raining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE
It's raiiiiining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE

Humidity's rising
Sadam's patience's getting low
According to my sources
Away from Baghdad's the place to go

'Cos tonight for the billionth time
At just about half past eight
For the billionth time in history
It's gonna start RAINING BOMBS!

It's raining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE
It's raiiiiining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE

It's raining bombs
Holy crap it's raining bombs
Every home
One, two, three stories or alone
Three, two, one, WE'RE GONE!

Screw that fucker George
Sadam's an idiot, too
They'll take our land
And destroy it with all their might
With their ato-mic bombs
To rearrange the the Earth
So that each and every human
Could find their way.... INTO HELL!

It's raining bombs
Go get yourself bombed
Sadam wants you too

I feel a nuclear bomb moving in
It's about to begin
Hear the bombers
Kill yourself now
Or wait 'til they blow you...
TO SMITHERINES!

It's raining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE
It's raiiiiining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE

It's raining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE
It's raiiiiining bombs!
Holy crap, it's raining bombs, WE'REGONNADIE

Original lyrics here

I am so fucking irritated right now, that I don't want to talk to anyone online. I've been a little irritated over the past few days, for no reason at all. And now that I actually DO have a reason, I'm even more irritated. God. I just want to watch some anime or Korean music videos to relax my system... ugh.

My English teacher is a fucking moron. Stupid little pregnant ignoramus half-twit.

She gave me a "B" for the first six weeks of this semester. I did all of my work, volounteered every single MOTHER FUCKING day to take part when we read aloud Much Ado About Nothing, and FOR WHAT? A B? What the fuck is that? I asked her why she gave me that grade, and her answer was, "Your work is good and strong."

WHAT THE FUCK KIND OF AN ANSWER IS THAT?

I told her that I did extra credit, and she said that that probably wasn't enough to bring my grade up to an A. Holy shit. Just because she was fucking stupid and gave me a "B" in my personal essay assignment, I am now getting a B altogether. What about all of the other work that I did? MOTHER FUCKING SHIIIIIT. I'm so mad right now, I can't even vent properly. UGH. I guess I'll just go to the DDR Freak forums and take my anger out on the idiotic newbies just so I could have someone to yell at and raise stupor upon. Bah.

An example of my irritability

I guess I went a little too outward on this thread, even if it isn't the worst thread that I have been a bitch in. But whatever, I take a lot of things that people say to me as a debate challenge. They think they're right? They try to make a fool of me? Well, everytime someone does that, they better expect another reply from me, because I rarely give up a debate once I start it. To me, it's a fun way of releasing my stress from "the real world". The only problem is, some of those people can get easilly butt-hurt if I *accidentally* call them a name or if I humilate them, but I don't care. It's the fucking Internet, and they'll get over it one day or another. If they don't, then I really question their sanity.

I'm confused about Andrew. I don't know if he likes me or not, but egh. The way that Ashley "accidentally" told him that I liked him went like this:

Ashley: "Hey, someone from our art class likes you."
Andrew: "Really? Is it Miladel?"
Ashley: "What? Oh uhhhhhhhhh..."

She ment to say that someone ELSE in our art class likes him. This one chick also named Ashley. But what SUPRISES me is that, I did not even make it obvious that I liked him. NOT AT ALL. And he guessed that I did? Right off the bat? Stephanie said that he probably likes me, because it would only make sense because he probably wouldn't have guessed me, without having so... or something. It made sense when she explained it.

UGH I am being such an idiot. But whatever, frown upon me as much as you want. I'm just being a teenager. Just another teenager that goes through the same teenager issues as everyone else. I guess I'm like, "BLAH" for being like everyone else and actually having feelings, and actually SHOWING them, but egh. I have to grow up some day and I don't think I should really compress my feelings much longer.

Other than Andrew, I really don't want a boyfriend/relationship right now. I mean, it would be perfect *just thinking about it* if Andrew and I got together... or something... because gosh, we go to the same school. We like the same types of music. He's the freaking same age and grade as me, thank god. And he actually lives in Santa Cruz! I made a promise to myself a looooooong time ago that I would NEVER EVER go out with a guy that's more than 3 years older than I am. I mean, even 3 years is a lot to me right now. I'm just a teenager. I'm still in highschool, and dating someone out of high school is just kind of wierd. Really wierd. And personally, I know I'm not mature enough to handle with that, you know? Plus, dating older guys is just.... ewww.

I'm so picky. But hey, it's just like what Isaac said a long time ago: Mil, it would take FOREVER for you to find a boyfriend. Because most guys would annoy you and you probably will not be able to stay with them for long periods of time without having the urge to rip his fucking head off.

I laughed and took that as a compliment. =)

Wow, I can't believe Andrew didn't run away from Art today. I was expecting him to avoid me or something, so I was just acting myself and did my business in Art. Right when I got to the Art room [I was earlier than usual], and Andrew was already there. He usually gets there right before the last bell to ring, usually one of the last people to arrive. I thought that was kind of wierd. But yeah, I myself felt wierd how I know that he knows that I liked him. So, instead of sitting on my desk and waiting for everyone else in my table to show up, I got as far away from him as possible and went to the computer to look for some scenary images on Google.

So yeah, I was minding my own business and looking for a new thing to draw, when I see him walk towards me. I get a little nervous, and just when I think he was only going to past me, he sat right down next to me. Even with my nervousness, I still managed to smile. He said while smiling, "Hey, what's up? What are you looking for?"

I started shaking a little bit, but didn't make it obvious. "Uhh... oh, just somt pictures for scenary. For that umm... water color painting thing that we have to do. Uhh... what do we have to do again? I forgot and since you've already umm... started it, umm... yeah"

God, I'm such an idiot. XD

Anywho, yeah. The two of us sat there and he helped me out a bit finding a good picture. I was looking for scenaries in Japan, and he suggested typing "Kyoto". haha. It was cute how he said "Kyoto". I found this really cool picture of a good backgroun scenary and a temple in front of it. He was like, "Wow, that one's really neat". Me: "Yeah, I know. How pretty."

I didn't really catch what he said next, I think he said something like "If you don't want to use that, then can I use it? Or something?"

I just said yes......

After that, the teacher called up the students in front of the room soo that he can demonstrate our new project. Since Andrew already knew what to do, he didn't go but I did. He stayed at the computer and looked for images. After the demonstration, I went back and asked him why he was looking for pictures, when he already WAS done drawing this one scenary of some bridge and the sea. He simply said he didn't like it, and ended up using the picture that I found.

Did I mention Ashley wasn't there? She didn't go to school today for some wierd reason.....

*reads over it* Wow, there's a bunch of typos and crap on this log. This is probably the most typos I've had in a blog entry.. ever. Oh well, I'm too lazy to fix it right now so yeah. Deal with it. XP

I am a terrible monster, yet I don't pray for death.

I found this lame shitty-ass website through this thread on DDR Freak. Holy shit, that has GOT to be the worst PAYED-FOR website that I have ever mother fucking seen. I posted this comment on their tagboard:

This is the lamest shit I have ever seen. Your website sucks. It looks like you had a monkey make it for you. Oh, wait no... a monkey would have more taste. I hope you choke on a piece of chicken.

Stupid tagboard filtered "shit" to "!MOO!". Lame.

I am NOT pangit: dude!
silly fobby gurl: http://story.news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story2&cid=573&ncid=757&e=3&u=/nm/20030314/od_nm/odd_kenya_latrine_dc
I am NOT pangit: wanna see the WORST WEBSITE EVER?
I am NOT pangit: o_O
silly fobby gurl: sure
silly fobby gurl: =P
I am NOT pangit: http://www.i-want-anime.com
I am NOT pangit: I went BLIND after going to the site
I am NOT pangit: i can't believe they actually PAYED for their domain and space
silly fobby gurl: ....
silly fobby gurl: uhhh
silly fobby gurl: is there a POINT to this site?!
I am NOT pangit: I don't think so
silly fobby gurl: and that top grpahic hurts my eyes
silly fobby gurl: x.x
I am NOT pangit: leave a message in the tagboard with me!
I am NOT pangit: XD
silly fobby gurl: constructive criticism
silly fobby gurl: =P
I am NOT pangit: lol
silly fobby gurl: what should i put as my website?
silly fobby gurl: OO
silly fobby gurl: GOOGLE
silly fobby gurl: XD
I am NOT pangit: kay
I am NOT pangit: lol
silly fobby gurl: you need to work on your layout. the font's hard to read and there's more vertical scroll than people on the planet...that and the top graphic makes me want to claw out my eyes. your faq also needs a bit of work, and at your age, you shouldn't be asking for people to pay you for making layouts. you have a LOOONG way to go buddy.
silly fobby gurl: CONSTRUCTIVE
silly fobby gurl: CRITICISM
I am NOT pangit: the limit is 200 characters
I am NOT pangit: =\
silly fobby gurl: fucker
I am NOT pangit: yup.
I am NOT pangit: lame

Julian Casablancas from The Strokes is so fucking hot.

I not only *love* his voice, but he just has that.... interesting... unexplainable attractiveness to him.

GOD I LOVE THE STROKES.

Ugh. Ashley told Andrew I liked him last week, the day before I told Sergio that she liked him. I guess now we're even. We were all joking around how he's going to be scared to go to Art now, and the reason why he didnt' go last time was because he was afraid that she and I would be all over him or something. Please. ¬.¬

Anywho, yeah. I want to see how this thing turns out....

In other news-

I got a package from Adam today! Ahhhhh holy shit he's the nicest guy EVAR. He burnt me three of Tashannie's albums along with Shinhwa's latest album. Freaking. I LOVE THAT GUY. *woes*

I got bored, so I stole this survey thing from Sean's blogger.

General Information:
1. My name is: Miladel Mendador Alba
4. My Phone #: 1-800-GIRLSGONEWILD
5. My birth date: June 7
6. The place I was born: Pasay City [Manila], Philippines
7. My astrological sign: Gemini
8. The name of my school: Harbor High
9. My hair color: Brown/reddish/orange. Used to be purple-ish
10. My eye color: Brown
11. My height: 5'4
12. My location: Santa Cruz, CA

More Info:
1. My favorite color(s): Red and White
2. My favorite places: In front of the computer where I listen to my MP3's.
3. My favorite foods: Chicken, leaves [salads], oranges, apples and ramen.
5. My favorite possession: My computer.
7. My favorite types of music(s): Alternative Rock/all types of rock, Jazz, Classical, Theatrical.
8. My favorite beverages: Water, Tang [the kind that comes in those Capri Sun-like pouches].
9. My favorite TV shows: I don't really have one.
10. My favorite movie(s): None?
11. My favorite singer(s): Bjork, Norah Jones, Jane Monheit [Jazz singer].
12. My favorite radio station(s): 103.9
13. My favorite book(s): Demon in My View [Atwater-Rhodes], Firestarter [Stephen King], Dreadful Sorry [forgot].
14. My favorite girls' name: Sakura, Celeste, Athena, Cookie
15. My favorite boys' name: Ryu, Kyo, Andy =X
16. My favorite sports: Basketball, volleyball and soccer.
17. My MOST favorite animal: Dog. [Yes, how very traditional]
18. My favorite mystical animal: The three-headed dog that would guard the underworld. [Cereberus]
19. My favorite candy: Anything sour.
20. My favorite ice cream: Rocky Road, anything by Ben and Jerry's.
25. My most favorite room in the house: Uhh... the one with the couch.
26. My favorite months of the year: December and June.
28. My favorite cereals: Lucky Charms or Coooookie Crisp! =O!

Personal Info:
5. If I have a secret I want to keep, I definitely won't tell: Anyone.
6. If I could have one wish come true, it would be: To finally know who I am.
7. If I could walk in anyone's shoe for a day, I'd choose: Stephanie's. She seems to be one of the funnest people in the group, yet the most distant.
8. One of the things that really bothers me is: People that over-compulsively lie.
9. If I could go anywhere in the world, I'd go to: The Philippines. I haven't been there ever since I moved here. [About 9 years ago..?]
10. If I were a cereal, the one I'd be is and why: I would be Cookie Crisp because I like cookies and being in a box of one would be like being in an orgy of the thing that I like the most. :3
11. If I had to choose one person to be stranded on a desert island with , I'd choose: JULIAN CASABLANCAS FROM THE STROKES. Holy shit he's hot.

People I Know:
1. The nicest person I know: Kristine [I guess quiet = nice?]
2. The funniest person I know: Ashley
3. The craziest person I know: Me, myself and I. =O!
4. The calmest person I know: Uhh.. Kristine, definitely.
5. The smartest person I know (academically): Kristine. hahahahahaha [darn Chinese intelectuals]
7. The person I trust the most: Uhh.......... I. Don't. Know.
8. The person admire the most: Christina's dad, for being the coolest person in the world and for having the patience with that idiot Christina.
9. The person I'd most like to be closer to: Andrew. =\

last...
x. song you listened to = The Hives - Hate To Say I Told You So.
x. song you've downloaded = I can't remember. x_o;
x. cd you bought = I haven't bought a CD in years. =X
x. cd you listened to = Mariah Carey's #1 Hits.
x. person you've called = Lorraine
x. person who's called you = Melinda

x. you have a bf or gf = bah. I want one, but I somehow don't want one.
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = HELL MOTHER FUCKING YES BUT THEN NO.
x. you think about suicide = Sometimes... or at least, I used to.
x. you believe in on line dating = UHH, NO.
x. others find you attractive = I don't know, I hate to admit to things like that. I find it being concieted. -_-;
x. you like roller coasters = Yes.
x. you write in cursive or print = Print-ish cursive.
x. you carry a donor card = No... I want my body to be all together when I die, thank you very much. Plus, I don't know where to get one and I don't really care either way. =P

for or against
x. long distance relationships = Against.
x. using someone = I would be hypocritical if I say I was against something that I tend to SOMETIMES do. =X
x. suicide = So-So.
x. killing people = For.
x. teenage smoking = Against.
x. doing drugs = Against.
x. driving drunk = AGAINST.
x. gay/lesbian relationships = Don't care.
x. soap operas = Against. Actually, I don't really care.

favorite...
x. song = right now: Weezer - Hash Pipe
x. thing to do = Being with friends.
x. band[s] = THE STROKES, The Hives, MxPx, Weezer, The Vines, Jimmy Eat World, Sublime, Dashboard Confessional, Staind, Audioslave.

have you...
x. ever cried over a girl or guy = HELL MOTHER FUCKING NO. [Unless you're talking about family members then that's a whole 'nother story]
x. ever lied to someone = Everyone lies, big whoope!
x. ever been in a fist fight = I wish I had. I crave one every now and then...
x. ever been arrested = Nope.

what...
x. cologne do you use = I don't use cologne. I prefer to smell guys, not smell LIKE one. o_O;
x. shoes do you wear = Dawls.
x. are you scared of = Being left behind. Being stranded. Being forgotten.

number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken?: 0
x. of times I have broken someone else's heart?: Too many to count =X
x. of times I have been in love: Nevernevernvenernevernever.
x. of guys I have kissed?: About.... 5? 6?
x. of continents I have lived in?: 2
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: I guess... 10 at the most. [Including those in A.S.S.]
x. of people I consider my enemies?: Holy shit, way too many to count. T_T
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: I'm still in high school..
x. of cd's that I own?: I don't know.
x. of things in my past that I regret?: Too lazy to remember.


Damn. Ashley called me in the middle of filling up this survey... and that was two and a half hours ago. That was the loooongest conversation that I had with her, ever. Usually, we would just call each other to get the homework for one of our classes and then quickly say bye, but this time, we actually had something to talk about. And yes, it was mostly of Andrew and how she was mad at me for telling Sergio that she liked him.... and yeah. We were just laughing the whole time, though. And we also debated over random crap, blah di blah blah blah. It was nice until my years started hurting and I told her I had to go take a shower.